Transition

These words from a “Christian”, I’m guessing… Christians only have two laws: Worship no other Gods, and love others as you love yourself. Guess he’s a self-hating person. Ignore him, as he will reap his own bitter oats. (Sorry for the rant.)

And as my very name itself means… “God is my judge.”  (that’s what Danielle means)  Basically, he ignores the fundamental rule that many others ignore… you do not judge anyone… that is God’s job.  I’m an atheist though… so its all rather irrelevant to me anyways.

So I wore the nail polish to work today… For the most part no one said anything… Except for one guy at lunch.  He saw the polish and assumed I was a goth or something… but then he went on to talk about some place in NYC where drag queens and other assorted people who he called “transformers” would go.  And he ended the conversation with “they’re heathens and they’re all going to hell.”  So now I know what I’m up against at work.  Most people don’t seem to give a shit.  I like when people are professional enough to go, okay… are you doing your job? Good, then do whatever makes you happy.  But it seems this one guy is going to be a problem.  Good thing the harassment training meeting is tomorrow.  I let him off easy this time, but next time he will not be so lucky.

It’s that day again… send me some asks!  As always, nothing is off limits.

So after being obsessed with my nails all weekend, I’ve decided that I don’t have the heart to remove the nail polish before I go to work.  I’m not out to most people still but I don’t care.  I’m wearing the fuck out of this nail polish.  Idareanyone to bother me about it… heh.  We have a company wide harassment training thing tomorrow, so it would be suicide for them.

Anonymous asked: FUCKING FRECKLES THOUGH. unf.

Hehe… yeah… I like my freckles too :P

And camera flash made my hair look red… no one believes me when I tell them my hair is brown, lol.  But I might dye it red… or maybe strawberry blond…

I forgot to mention something in my last post: On Friday HR sent out an email saying that on May 30th there’s going to be a company meeting on harassment. So this is entirely speculation, but one of my coworkers thinks this too… but its possible this meeting is happening because of me. I mean it could just be a coincidence, but it’s very strangely timed. Maybe this is their way of making people aware without targeting or directing any of it at me in order to avoid responsibility for anything I do regarding coming out.

*shrug* In any case I hope this helps make things easier for me when I go full time…

I was going to call it something else, but when I totally decided to go for the joke.

Anyways, I forgot to write about this on Friday, but I finally came out to my two immediate coworkers Friday morning.  I had always planned on telling them in person, not through a letter, and I finally worked up the courage to do it.  One of them didn’t really react since I kinda told him while we were busy with stuff.  The other one I told while we were on our 10 minute break and his reaction was “oh, I know.”

I guess I wasn’t being as subtle as I thought when me and him had conversations in the past…  But it’s okay because he’s totally cool with me it seems.  I told him about everything that was going on and how the company wasn’t helping me and he encouraged me to be myself and just do what I need to do and fuck what anyone else thinks.

Now I only hope everyone else in the company could react so well.

I’m almost  going backwards at this point and I’m starting to get really upset.  I was at my desk today trying to hold back tears after I got another call from HR.  She apparently spoke to ADP again and they had decided that I shouldn’t send an email because the corporate email is for business purposes only.  Hmm, okay… so why does everyone send out mass emails when someone has a baby?  My email actually has something to do with work and is important.  Why can’t I send it?  And further more, what does it matter if its for “business purposes only” because this is something you know I need to do and I already said I would be extremely uncomfortable without some way of reaching out to everyone at the company.  It’s not a federal law that the company’s email has to be used for very specific purposes… its yours.  You can allow one exception for an employee in need.  I don’t see everyone every day and many people don’t even actually interact with me (but still know I exist and vaguely who I am).  These people all need to be made aware and enlightened on the nuances of gender identity and transgender people.

So I’m going to try and convince her to let me send the email… I have no other options.  I don’t know what I’ll do otherwise.  Of course I could always just send it anyways… but then I’d most likely get written up and maybe fired.

On that note… if anyone has any ideas of what I should do if I can’t send the email, I’d love to hear them.